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Sunday, October 25, 2009

Lose my name, lose my number

All my life, I've never been one to hold a grudge. I forgave bullies, heart-breakers. When I got into fights, we worked out our differences. Even when someone wooed a girl I considered to be my future, I tried to put things in perspective. The thing with the guy and gal didn't work out for him. I didn't win her, either. (You could have read about a similar situation. You still can, if you ask me. In fact, you must ask me. Otherwise, you won't get the story.)

Now I'm holding a grudge. It hasn't lessened at all. It has become a staple in my life, holding me together. It has become an intense hatred of the betrayal done to me. I can't think of that person without my anger increasing, without my teeth (or what's left of them) grinding, without making a fist. My friendship with that person is officially over, I will never contact again. In fact, I have severed ties with that family, and any friend of that family which tries to contact me. I do not answer anything that does get through. It has been no loss.

When the betrayal became known, I gave that person a week to come clean, apologize for the behavior. That spineless coward who though "Anonymous betrayal" would work has found out a Biblical truth: There is nothing concealed that shall not be brought to light.

At that time, I wrote a poem. It has morphed a little in the months since. If you would like to read it, I have added it here. BUT BE WARNED: It contains some words that some people would find objectionable. One is a slang word for evil woman, a word meaning "Female dog." It is repeated many times. If you are offended by the use of that word in such a manner, don't read on.

Another is a short form of the word for prostitute, used by many rappers. Again, same warning.

The poem pictures this betraying person as a dominatrix in one spot, a woman who loves being raped. Drug user (by her own admission), raped (ditto), homewrecker, and liar.
I do NOT feel this way about women in general. Only this one.

You have been warned.
Now, if you plan to read on, here is the poem.


Lose my name, lose my number
Hey there, bitch, tell me how you feel...
About the pain you caused me -
Do you feel more "Real"?
You get your jollies causing pain --
Enough to make you smile again?
As of today, me you'll not encumber.
I'm telling you bitch:
Lose my name, lose my number!

You indulged in Mary Jane --
Only way you could get more pain.
It took you off on a hijacked plane.
Three joints to get ready, Four to go....
Now you gonna go and get some "MO"?
As of today, me you'll not encumber.
I'm telling you bitch:
Lose my name, lose my number!

Two marriages wrecked, maybe more...
Laughing hard at him when he’s thrown out the door.
The guy was hoping to see much more....
Your Seductive walk, and sexy lie...
Enough to make a grown man cry...
As of today, me you'll not encumber.
I'm telling you bitch:
Lose my name, lose my number!

You were raped, you say -- it is so plain.
You Enjoyed it! You LOVE Pain!
What's in the corner? A whip and chain?
What did you tell that lucky boy?
To use the real thing or a sex toy?
As of today, me you'll not encumber.
I'm telling you bitch:
Lose my name, lose my number!

What the Hell did they promise you?
Position? Power? Lots of money, too?
You had your price, I'm sure that's true!
Just what was it you got to lay me low?
Tell me, Bitch! I wanna know!
But As of today, me you'll not encumber.
I'm telling you bitch:
Lose my name, lose my number!

You ugly bitch, you filthy ho'
Just one last thing before I go...
I don’t forgive and forget, you know!
The Almighty sticks people like you in Hell.
It's no big thing, You know it well!
As of today, me you'll not encumber.
I'm telling you bitch:
Lose my name, lose my number!

You betrayed me, that fact remains
You got your jollies from my pains.
You lied about me, you'll lie again!
The Almighty sticks people like you in HELL
It's no big thing, You know it well!
As of today, me you'll not encumber.
I'm telling you bitch:
Lose my name, lose my number!

In the future that I foresee
This betrayal will forever haunt thee..
Be around to comfort you I will not be!
Retribution swift, and justice sure...
You're a disease, and death's the cure!
As of today, me you'll not encumber.
I'm telling you bitch:
Lose my name, lose my number!

As of today, me you'll not encumber!
I'm telling you bitch:
Lose my name, lose my number!

1 comment:

  1. There are some people I feel that way about myself. Not many and not lately, but some...

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