Looking back.

Some people have been blessed with perfect vision.  Others have been granted the gift of being a visionary.  And yet all of us--and I mean ALL--have been cursed with 20/20 hindsight.   As I look back over the year of disaster which is commonly known as 2007, I see a lot of things I could have done differently.  A lot of things I SHOULD have done differently.  But when it comes down to it, I am not sure that I would change a thing.   This issue is TRUST.  It's something one of my old colleagues didn't have in me.  I had it in him, but I suffered betrayal.  Yes, I still hurt.  And yes, it makes it difficult to trust anyone else.  Yet I trust my friends...And I must be much more selective in choosing those I believe are.   I trusted someone with whom I worked.  The persecution which I underwent was because of him.  I have a slight idea of how Jesus felt when he was betrayed by one of his own, and yet I realize that on a cosmic scale that my own being betrayed is nowhere near that betrayal by Judas.  Yet Judas sold out for 30 pieces of silver.  My betrayer was simply a coward.  The term Quisling comes to mind.   My "Freedom" is costly.    But it is also a relief.  And yet I know for a fact:  While human justice may have eluded me,  The GRAND JUDGE in the scheme of things will have His say.  My vindication is at hand;  Justice will be served.  This is not to say I am an innocent.  I know perfectly well of my own sins and short-comings.  Yet my advocate is at hand, and he understands me.  He understands anger.  He understands being betrayed.  And he knows TRUTH.   I look back--and I know that my advocate has paid the price.  He paid it for me.  He paid it for YOU.  He even paid it for my betrayer.  I hope my betrayer understands this.    My advocate lives.  And I know-- He is there.  He has always been there.    My earnest prayer is this:  Do not forget the wrong done to me.  But chide him, chasten...and redeem.   "POPTART"-- and you know who you are... Think about this for a while.  And remember.